Friday, October 31, 2008

Heroes is the best, and here's my thing that i do

THE PETRELLIs



The petrelli's family power are mainly taking power from someone else. three of the family members have displayed this ability, such are Arthur, Peter, and Gabriel/Sylar. Arthur takes power by taking them whole, not leaving a trace, but fortunate they are alive. peter's power are empathy mimicry, meaning that he can have the power just by being exposed to them. and the last guy is Gabriel/Sylar. he can mimic the powers too, but his way is different, he must first find out how the powers works, only then he can do it.the form is intuitive aptitude. these proves that LIKE FATHER LIKE SON.isnt it cool?



but theres another guy missing, Nathan. but according to the season 3 episode, nathan was born without any power, so his parent gave him powers, unfortunately, the powers are not so great than what his parent expected but its also cool. he can fly.



and next theres Angela. she is a precog, but she doesn't paint, think of it as imagination precog. too bad in the recent episode she is in a Coma.



and then theres the granddaughter, named Claire. she doesn't take power because the line blood is long, so she didn't inherit the power. but theres another reason, Nathan doesn't have original powers, it was synthetic power, he was injected with, however, Claire's mother is also an evolve human, the born with the power kind. and i do mean her real mother meredith the pyrokinetic one. pyrokinetic have the uncanny ability to not get hurt when they start fire with any part of their body. so this power is almost like regenerative healing, only they cant get burn easily. the traits there.



and since i'm in the mood to talk about power. i too have the imagination to have powers too. and if anyone actually has the actual formula that is talked about in the show, please inject me with it. i would like to have powers seriously. nah i'm kidding. but it sure would be awesome.






" Why are you scared to dream of god, when it's salvation that you want? You see stars that clear have been dead for years,But the idea just lives on...."

We are Nowhere And its Now-BrightEyes

Friday, October 24, 2008

i'm afraid to be your friend because i'll always want more

i came back from the great life,
it is by chance,
from the attention of a lot of girl,
to just wanting it from you,
but my ways were wrong,
i mistreated you,
just like all your past boyfriends,
but all you wanted was the old me,
because of my ego,
i forgot what you wanted,
never inteding to hurt you,
and not asking for forgiveness,
because it wasnt all my fault,
you had your share,

you showed me your love,
but i choked,
regretting that choice,
awkward filled me,
not wanting to lose you,
and losing your friendship,
our friendship was the bond,
that made me fall in love with you,
and in the end,
we ended up looking at each other,
and asking ourselves questions,
where would we go?
what path is to be taken?
will we ever be more than just friends?


Inspired by:
JUST FRIENDS,
starring Ryan Reynolds and Amy Smart.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

Jungle Of Hope

This is one of my all time favourite novel. it became so after countless hours of reading it, iover and over again, befoire going to sleep, and waiting for my dad to pick me up from school. then again, it wasn't my favourite all the time, before this it was Dr. JEkyll and Mr. Hyde. it became so after i actually really understood what the meaning of the story was, and the relevance of the story to our lives, and to be exact, the live of the student thats bound to read it. when people read novels, they read because they want entertainment, and its not easy to find one who really interpret the meaning of the real agenda behind the story. mostly the student that reads them only read them because their teacher told them to do so, and if they dont read the actual thing, the teachers knows this.. and at times, i too know when my friends haven't read the actual novel.

at first i was really confused at the story, and how it begins, but later i found out the significance of the story to my life. many would laugh at the fact that i would actually emulate something from what i've read, when in actual life, i'm not that kind of person, and to be honest, i'm not that of religious person too. anyway, the truth about the story was that, it was written in 1983 by the guy that called himself Kris Mas. it was a story about how families struggle to survive just a few years before the start of the second world war. their hometown being bought by the English for Tin mining, and moving andd starting a new land in the middle of the jungle. and at long last, the families, got through with it and live happily.


there are two characters that i want to focus on, that is Zaidi and Pak Kia . these 2 characters represent each one of us in one way or another.

Zaidi:
Zaidi is this modern thinking guy who doesn't solely depends on rice fields like his brother Pak Kia, and he makes a living by running a shop, and employing aborigines to supply him with rotan and such. but he is not greedy, and he is religious. he follows the Kaum Muda teaching, and tried hard to fit in wiht time unlike his brother. Zaidi is the kind of guy who can adapt to changes quickly. what i'm about to write may change your life, or it may not, but whatever it does just, read on through. The opening of the tin mines, and rubber plantation means the ending of the old days, meaning its the end of the rice planting, and on with the making rubber and industries. that is what is written in the book, its the conveyed message. but from my point of view, the ending of the old days represents the end of our school life. it means we need to move on sooner or later, but whatever our decision is we still have to move on. zaidi accepted the change quickly but realized that not everyone can be like him. sound familiar? well after finishing secondary school, some of us can adapt to life in college or university much quicker than anyone else. you are adapting just fine without realizing that not everyone around you are fine. some are slow to accept the change but some can't accept the change and are left behind. in the novel those who i meant is left behind is the other townfolks who left the town and starts another rice fields in some other town. and in real life, those who are left behind mean that some may drop out due to the harsh nature of college life. so in short Zaidi represent change, or ourselves moving forward into new things adventuring into the unknown.

Pak Kia:
Pak Kia is the old guy that at first solely depends on rice fields for a living. meaning if the rice fields get blown away by a hurricane, he and his family would die of starvation. he was at first adamant on staying where he is, not intending to sell his rice fields and move somewhere else. but as the story progress, he decided that it was time to move, so he agreed with zaidi to sell the land, and he and his family started a new life in Janda Baik. he struggled to open the new land, and in the end he succeeded. the intepretation here, its not always easy adapting to changes in the world around you especially when you have lived way too long in the old world. you start to feel uneasy about moving on, not wanting to change the way you have your life now. this relates to the life of a secondary school graduate by meaning that some of the student dont want to move on with their life. they rather live in the "old world" meaning school, they dont want to leave school because they grew up living in the school, and learning and maturing with its environment. the reason is there things that may scare you when you move to college or university, like the way you study, at school you are spoonfed with every detail of info into your brain and forced to memorized the thing over and over again. while in college or university, its different, you have to study hard, take notes for yourself, do more research, study group and more. this sometimes scares the 'Pak Kia', because this is a new environment to them. they are the kinds that take things slowly, and changes slowly, not wanting to lose memory of what they have had in the old world while they travel to the new world which was quite unknown to them. Pak Kia represent the old way of life, the part of ourselves that wants everything to stay the same and at the same time wants to move forward but slowly, discovering the new world.

this was my intepretation of what the Novel Jungle Of Hope. although the writer has been deceased for years, i still respected him for what he wrote. and i think this is what the education at school wanted us to know by reading the novel, at least that is what i hope it is.

but seriously, the conclusion from what i had read before was that, changes is always okay, although sometimes it may be challenging at times but you have to change, you have to move forward and carry on with your life.


"Our paths they did cross, though I cannot say just why,
We met, we laughed, we held on fast, and then we said goodbye
And who'll hear the echoes of stories never told?
Let them ring out loud till they unfold"

Melodies of Life-Emiko Shiratori (Soundtrack Final Fantasy 9, Garnet's song)

Monday, October 20, 2008

Real Life is much better, so is Fantasy

real life is lame, but its real, and we are the occupants. probably many people wished that they can live in the world of fantasy. i mean, i can't deny that i sometimes imagine that i'm in the world of HEROES, where i would have the powers of cryogenic, meaning i can create ice, which is kinda awesome. but seriously there is nothing wrong with imagining that you're in some fantasy world but when its time to wake up from those fantasy, you have to wake up. really wake up. some dont intend to wake up from those fantasy, and sadly most of them turned up crazy, or killing themselves.

but seriously, why i did this topic came to my head? well lets just say that it happened, and its not good to talk about it. when you're in love, never expect what you would expect in movies or tvs, or fairytales. i'm seriously pissed off at girls that thinks story books love is real, and they try to make it happen and sometimes when the guy doesnt get it its his fault, for not wanting to be "in love" with her. but seriously, you cant expect a guy to be there with you all the time, and receiving your call 24-7. i mean how can i answer the call when the guys in the toilet, and then tells the guy that he doesn't love her, and when you have a class or work or something else to do, your always cheating in her eyes....

fantasy are just things that goes about in peoples mind. dont expect it to come in real life, and if you're married, dont ever think that its all gonna be good, and like i said, is never gonna be happily ever after. if you always expect that you're always gonna live happily ever after, you're never gonna be happy with the girl or guy you're with, or worse off, you'll get a divorce.

Friday, October 17, 2008

i love you but i cant touch you

her smile, her voice,
is echoing in my head,
no matter what she does,
i'm still in love with her,
she's my first kiss,
and probably gonna be my last,
the way she treats me,
so nice and warm,
i saved her more than once,
just like superman did with Lois,
or spiderman with Mary-J,

She's the epitome of my love,
we sleep beside each other,
but we can't touch,
if i touch her,
i will probably lose her,
never want that,
never to lose her again,


I love Her but i Can't touch her.......


Inspired by: Pushing Daisies

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Silent your phone you freaking idiot!!

handphones.. they are the most incredible thing that has ever been invented. they have helped me in a lot of way, mostly breaking up with a girl without having to face them, or asking them out, without being too socially awkward, and sudden choking. so it has helped me alot. and to whoever invented it is a real genius.

however, there are times that i really get pissed off at the freaking thing. these are the situations.

1. using handhone at the movies.

who wants to be disturbed when you're watching a great movie like Lord Of the Ring. it wasnt just during that time, but during any movie that i have seen. like theWineKone has said in his youtube video, there is always some freaking idiot who doesn't silent their phone when they are in side the cinema. seriously, they have this note showed before the start of any movie that specifically asked you to silent your phone! dumbass! silent you damn phone, you stupid jackass!

2. using the handphone freaking everywhere anywhere

i know you have a lot of credit in your phone, dont do this thing where you go everywhere and just carry the phone in your freaking hand because like every 2 or 3 minutes you'll get a text from someone you know. its freaking annoying. i have this cousin, who i call gay(AZZRA) and everywhere he go, he would usually get a text from someone. and when he goes out, you know what he spend most on? credits. i mean he spent about rm1000 per week just for the sake of credits. and he's not the only one, i also has this friend named Tony who's in Labuan's KML, and according to my other friend, he buys phone credits rm 30 every freaking day. thats a whole lot of money. i dont know whos he calling or texting, but i hate this behaviour. and there was also this girl that i used to date, she w agreed to go out with me, but when we were at this cafe eating, she was looking at her freaking phone the whole time, like i couldn't even finish a damn sentence before the next text would arrive. so i never saw her again, and when she actually did text me some other time, i ignored her number. and please for the love of god, dont text while you are walking , its a stupid idea, because when i went to the Spring last Saturday, there was this douchebag, who bumped into me while he was texting someone, and laughing like an idiot while reading the damn thing. he was angry at me for bumping into him. and i said what? and told him not to be a jackass and text while you're walking. isnt it obvious? i hate jackasses like that....

3. using your handphone while you're out with your friends or talking, or studying, or doing anything that requires attention.

dont ever if you are hanging out with me in particular use your damn phone too much. why use your phone to talk to someone when your friends are already there to talk to you, dumbass. sseriously, use your phone for emergency calls, dont ever text in front of me unless you want your phone to be usable for the next few days.. and when you are in class, or tuition class, please have the courtesy of not texting. it really bad enough that youre not paying attention, you're actually wasting youre time there. i have this friend who went to the same tuition class as me, but every week we meet, he would always buy a reload card before entering the class, and by the end of class, he would buy another one. and the class was merely 2 hours. and he bought like the rm50 credit. and i was so amazed by the way that he spent his money. unfortunately, everytime we went for a break, he would asked me to buy the Jantayu Burger for him, using my money..... what a douche.

seriously people, stop doing things like that that could really annoy people. and i know the reason why some people like to use the phone when they are hanging out with their friends, it may be because they hate their friends or they have no social skill at all. even i talk or socialize when i'm out with my friends, me, the guy that hates everything about my life, and spent most of my days locked up in my room. for me hanging out is the only thing that lets me socialize, that and going to class. and all the guys that i have mentioned before, have tons of friends, and all they do is text and call, and text and call more. such idiots are useless. and try not to comment me saying that i dont text to people because i dont have any friend, i have lots of friends, and i only text them when its important. why would i text them just so i could talk about games, or dating, or girls? maybe because i like to talk instead of texting, or i dont like wasting credits, i dont have any credits technicallly, since i'm a post-paid subscriber. so my words to all the idiots that have done this, or to people who have friends that does this, give a big slap to yourselves or your friends because chances arre you can still save them from becaoming a mindless texting zombies.


"I'm a lot like you so please Hello, I'm here, I'm waiting I think I'd be good for you and you'd be good for me I asked you to go to the Green Day concert You said you never heard of them How cool is that?? So I went to your room and read your diary: "watching Grunge leg-drop New-Jack trough presstable..." and then my heart stopped "listening to Cio-Cio San fall in love all over again.""

Weezer El-Scorcho

when theres nothing to do, dont do anything..

HEROES.....HEROES...and more HEROES....

just finished watching HEROES... the 4th episode of the 3rd season....oh god... it was so intense, i might have woken up my neighbours baby, by screaming for no apparent reason, but i think it has something to do with the fact that PETER almost killed NATHAN, and SYLAR suddenly turned good........ thats all i can say to not spoil it for anyone that watches heroes......haahahhah

also, i just watched episode 6 of "90210", the new generation of the old Beverly HIlls 90210... really there are pretty girls everywhere in the show, like Jessica Stroup, or Shenae Grimes, or AnnaLynne McCord .... but wait theres more, even the actor that potray their moms are pretty hot..... really....they are hot... seriously..

and another show that returned for a 2nd season is, Chuck. and by the way its not a show about throwing stuff, its actually a show about action and SPYING .its like an American James Bond, only, the lead character isn't as good or strikingly charming like James Bond, but the girls are always hot....

Pushing Daisies.. its not a kids show that takes place on a daisy field and kids running around the field and then getting stung by bees. its almost like HEROES, but think of it being a cross-over of HEROES and Lemony Snickets: A series of Unfortunate Event. with the show being narrated. and the HEROES part, the main character thats called NED has this amazing ability to revive the dead, but only for a minute, and if they are let alive for more than that, they will take the life of another one thats very near to them, and if NED touches them the second time they will die... again. so far the onlly death caused by his power is his mother's life for his girlfriends CHUCK's father, then his mother again because he touched her the second time, and then theres CHUCK"S life for a guy who steals at the morgue... and thats it...and by the way, the relationship between those two are not very advisable, since they cannot touch one another.

theres more shows that i want to write about, but i dont want to... and did i tell you that i went to the CATS FM studio today... it was what i always thought it would be, bubbly radio presenter and a whole lot of microphones...

"What's the deal With my brain? Why am I so obviously insane? In a perfect situation I let love down the drain There's the pitch Slow and straight All I have to do is swing and I'm a hero But I'm a zero ..." WEEZER-Perfect Situation

Sunday, October 5, 2008

a little out of the odd-dinary

as i have predicted before raya, or specifically the month before Syawal, or October, or during ramadhan or last september, this year's raya wasn't that fun.

the reason?

probably because the time to celebrate raya seems quite shorter and shorter, and maybe its because raya is getting more, and more closer to the month of June. it is the middle of the year and you're celebrating raya... its just kinda not so right. i mean its fine if you're a working class citizens, but if you're a student, any type either school, colleges or even university... it is never fun maybe its because in the middle of the year, you dont get that much of vacations from school, or any institutions. and by not so correct calculations, the date when raya is going to be celebrated at the end of the year is, quite posibly in the year 2018, or somewhere close to there... and by that time, i'll either be dead, or i might have a family, or i might still be living with my parent's house with or without them, or i might be in a hospital somewhere getting open-heart surgery... but in any way i won't be a student in that year....

so anyway, here are the things that i've done durin raya... and if i haven't been to any of my friends house i'm very typically sorry, its either the time was tight, or i was at your house and you weren't home... seriously...

i didn't have that much time at home, the only time i was home was probably at night or the first day of raya(my family had an open house)most of the time was actually spent visiting others..

like the second day, i went to my mom's family.. which included her uncles and aunts and grand-uncles and aunts and to me, they are all my "NENEK"... i just call them that.. and this year the visit ended kinda early because my mom couldn't go no more because of her high blood pressure, and she was sleepy, it was only 7.10 pm..... i dont know whats up with that... and on the plus side i did get to see one my favourite uncle, or to be more specific my dad's cousin.. my father calls him Ghani, i might have to call him Uncle Ghani.. or maybe it was Pak Ghani...well the reason he's one of my favourite is because when he talks about Islam, i somtimes can relate to what he is saying, like how there is a secret war between the different schools in Islam about how to perform your daily prayers, when in the Quran it is stated you must perform the Solat(daily prayers) and the Hadith shows you how to perform it(as Rasullullah wanted us to perform as he did during the prayers) . and to not be terorize by some menacing comments after some have read this, i will not go on...but you catch my drift.....

and finally on the third day of Raya, my time to o visitin with my friends(T-man, Nazwan, Zakey, Pdos, Ridwan, and Kobad(Pdos's friend)and rahman) it was planned to be a about 9 pm, but instead it was pushed forward to11.00 pm. ow and the time shift was caused by waking up late, and long showers.. so we finally did get started, the first house was ridwan's(for me and nazwan) and the second house was Zakey's(first for the others) the third house was Zila's, and then since it was already noon and it was fridays, we had to go perform the Friday's prayer.. we chose to go to masjid Jamek, which was bad idea if you're in a hurry.. the traffic was really-really really really really bad... my car got covered by some ass who drives a Perodua VIVA. but other than that it was fine afterwards.. we went to romy's house to send Zakey over.. and we ate some really yummy things there. and after we went to my cousin's house, OPIE..we had to go there, my mother pressured me to go, and we did. which was agood thing, since we haven;t had lunch. they prepared a delicious meal of steam chicken rice, and daging masak hitam. all of us ate there. so we did...then after... we went over to someone's house i couldnt remember the name... but it was sure fun. then we went over to our BRO's house, brother Fairuz, our substitute teacher who we can really relate to and now maybe he;s like a friend.. and over at his house we found some of his sister's friend over too at the same time as us.. and we had to hold off the fliritng for a while since its raya.. so we behave.. and one thing that brother fairuz advised us all was, never commit to a relationship, have as many friends as you can, and when your ready then you settle down.. this is however is quite similar to my code or also known as the Bro code(which i learned from 'how i met you're mother') which is never marry until youre 30..and the details are quite the same...so afterwards we went to the spring to go kill time, and browse for books, and ice cream.... and later we went searching for Ezza's house which we couldn't find and then to dedek's house... and lastly i went home...quite tiring but i didn't come home late, it was only about 9 something...a nd when i came home, Nek Abu came just after me.so i had to wake up my mother and such ... my brother came home late maybe 11 and my other borther even later than me maybe about 1.00 am... and next morning i woke up and still got the scolding for going home late... i dont know why but it so happens that its my fate....

so the journey ended there... not really the fourth day, yesterday, went to more of my mom's relatives' house and more house... finally came home where nobody was.. both my brother;s wasn;t home... so i was forced to do labour again... when people show up... and when i asked to borrow the car to go to my friends open house my mom told me i cannot go... she said i had enouh fun yesterday... what am i an SPM student?.. so i never went out since yesterday, and still trapped here...i can't wait till i turn 18 next year, maybe then she'll treat me like an adult...

tomorrow is when class will start again, it will be a hard morning to wake up to, but i have to, because i have to... then again most of my assignments are done and i really cant wait to go to Cats FM this thursday, or wednesday...really i cant.....

"you are the epitome of my every being, the essence of my everything, the love of my life..."
heard it or read it from somewhere...