it was announced a few minutes ago, that the fasting month was to start tomorrow, which has just worsen my week. first worst thing, i can't go out yesterday at night for some strange reason. i dont get to see the girl that i was hoping to like. and my dad was admitted to the hospital because of hypertension. this was a very crappy week for me. plus i haven't even finished my assignment which was due next week, tomorrow. so in the morning i must finished it. i must.
the weekends really sucked. the weather keeps turning bad, i kept getting scolded by my mother for no apparent reason,. and for once on my whole seventeen years living, i didn't get to celebrate the independence day.which i kinda admit was lame of me to miss it. each and every year i would somehow find a way to celebrate it. like last year, i didn't quite remember it, but i went out with someone and saw the parade and the fireworks, and the hot girls. and the year before that, i slept at the midnight celebration, but i was in one of the parade. and the year before that was with rudy. so this year i dont feel the heat anymore. nothing feels right about this whole year. i turned seventeen, but i didn't feel like it, i met some hot girls earlier this year and still not feeling it, and Raya is about a month away, and i dont feel like celebrating Raya, most probabl because most of my friends are not here, even my family is not here. if i were to live a long life, i would probably labeled this year as the most boring year of my life. plus i'm still treated like a kid. i cant go anywhere. when my brother finished highschool, my mother bought him a car, and he went out like crazy. and me, i dont get a car, i dont get to go out, and i still get yelled at for no apparent reason.i still cant go out because each and every week, there will always be some kind of excuses. and i am afraid of having a girlfriend relationship with any girl.
if i go meet a shrink, i would most probably be classified as having issues with relationship. i dont, its just that i havent met the right girl.
the right girl for me:
1-kind and caring(obvious answer)
2-funny and can understand my kind of jokes
3-can understand it when i talk games with her
4-likes the music that i like
5-not so bitchy
6-not that choosy
7-have a really cute laugh and smile
8-likes long distant car rides and motorcycle rides
9-isn't too trendy
10-enjoy watching movies and criticizing and making fun of lame movies
this kind of traits isn't that hard to find, but they dont come in the whole package, they come in little package, like number 1 and number 3. or 1,2,3,5,6,9. or even 1,2,3,4,5.. and such... i'm sure hoping to find the girl if i search hard and long and really carefully. but with the way things are going with me, i dont even know if its even gonna come true.
i'm really hoping to find the girl, and i just hope i find her soon, since i'm starting to lose my will to live. now my only goal is to become the next steven spielberg, or ahmad idham, or aziz m osman. i'm searching for some other aspiration to pursue, and i hope i can find the girl, or if there are any girl reading this post out there that thinks that they fill the right girl criteria, well leave a comment and i'll let you know.
"first comes heavy breathing, staring at the ceiling, what will happen next i dont wanna know..."
New Found Glory-I Dont Wanna Know
Sunday, August 31, 2008
Thursday, August 28, 2008
but its better if you do.... and probably the best if you dont
masquarade ball.... i dont have any experience with these kind of things, most probably because i dont ever feel like going to those kinds of event... EVER.... maybe because of the couple thing, or maybe its because of the age difference, or maybe i'm just not the socialite kind that goes to those things.... but according to the lecturer it is compulsary to all students to go.. still its not for me, and it never will. if i have a date i might consider going, yeah.. and monkeys might fly out of my butts(waynes world tribute)........
so in any case if they even force me to go, i would probably just sit in my car and wait for a few hours then leave .... and to just prepare for the worst i have prepared a few mask for the ball....
so in any case if they even force me to go, i would probably just sit in my car and wait for a few hours then leave .... and to just prepare for the worst i have prepared a few mask for the ball....
its the same mask, i just turned it upside down, and added a little mouth to the bottom part... and if i'm feeling a wee bit halloween spirit, there's the big jack-o-lantern mask....
the jack-o-lantern thing(rudy's mask) the scary mask that gave some of my friends nightmare at school, kidding, and then theres the whole green leaf on top of the head that annoys me......
the burn victim look...or as i name it Knife point.....heheheh... whatever decision i made tomorrow, i am prepared....
and did i mention that this saturday will either be a happy day or sad day for me, or just another saturday ...... i'll update after the whole things happens... or maybe tomorrow if i have time.....
"wandering the street with the world underneath it all... nothing seems to be, nothing taste as sweet as what i can have..... like you and the was as you twisting your hair round your finger..... tonight i'm going tell you, what i feel about you..." Teddy Geiger-For You I Will(confidence)
Monday, August 18, 2008
MR. Sandman
Mister Sandman, bring me a dream
Make her cutest that I've ever seen
Give her two lips like roses in clover
Then tell her that her lonesome nights are over
Mister Sandman,
I'm so aloneDon't have nobody to call my own
Please turn on your magic beam
Mister Sandman, bring me a dream
Mister Sandman, bring me a dream
Make her cutest that I've ever seen
Give her the word that I'm not a rover
Then tell her that her lonesome nights are over
Mister Sandman, I'm so alone
Don't have nobody to call my own
Please turn on your magic beam
Mister Sandman, bring me a dream
Mister Sandman, bring us a dream
Give her a pair of eyes with a congeal of gleam
Give her a lonely heart like Harlehatschi
And not so wavy hair like Liberachi
Mister Sandman, someone to hold
Would be so peachy before we're to old
So please turn on your magic beam
Mister Sandman, brings us
Please, please, please
Mister Sandman
Bring us a dream
Make her cutest that I've ever seen
Give her two lips like roses in clover
Then tell her that her lonesome nights are over
Mister Sandman,
I'm so aloneDon't have nobody to call my own
Please turn on your magic beam
Mister Sandman, bring me a dream
Mister Sandman, bring me a dream
Make her cutest that I've ever seen
Give her the word that I'm not a rover
Then tell her that her lonesome nights are over
Mister Sandman, I'm so alone
Don't have nobody to call my own
Please turn on your magic beam
Mister Sandman, bring me a dream
Mister Sandman, bring us a dream
Give her a pair of eyes with a congeal of gleam
Give her a lonely heart like Harlehatschi
And not so wavy hair like Liberachi
Mister Sandman, someone to hold
Would be so peachy before we're to old
So please turn on your magic beam
Mister Sandman, brings us
Please, please, please
Mister Sandman
Bring us a dream
the aftermath, the end... and the starting...
Limkokwing class started last week. it was a busy week for me and my whole family. there was this weeding of my aunt( my mom's cousin) wedding. it took about three days to finish, the first day, friday, the akad nikah. then saturday, the wedding reception, and Sunday the thank you party .
but wait there's more. that sunday was also the day of my newborn cousin's makan Selamat. that was probably what last week was all about.
in every family there's always this rich family thats somehow connected to us. there are some from my mother's side. they are my second cousin. they are filthy rich and live in this big house, and i never seem to connect with them. probably the main reason because the dont seem to remember me at all. they remember everyone else in my family but not me and my brothers. it was kinda, how should i put it, weird that they dont know family. so i was like whatever, and i didn't care. when they saw me, i knew that they looked right throuht me like i'm invisible or something. it wasn't a really big deal but i never seem to connect with them at all. when we were kids, my mom would inrodused us as second cousin because we need to know our family. they would of course acknowledge my existense for once, and they would try and have a conversation with me. and the next few years we dont see each others and they forgot about us already. how could they forget about us, i didn't forget them. and the next again we met, and this time our mom introdused us again, just in case we forgot who we were. and so our existense are once again acknowledge. but then again of course the whole process starts again. forgetting, introducing, and acknowledging and such.
and do you ever meet with rich kids? they're favourite line is " i may be rich but i can talk with everyone. i'm humble."
as if. i've been with rich kids that are like that. they say they can talk with everyone, and i agree they can, but they dont hang out with everyone. but dont worry this has nothing to do with anyone that i know, NOT!
"Kabus malam tanpa bulan bintang seribu satu kisah lenggang lenggok mu... figura hatiku!!"
THE TIMES-Konfrantasi primadonna 1965
but wait there's more. that sunday was also the day of my newborn cousin's makan Selamat. that was probably what last week was all about.
in every family there's always this rich family thats somehow connected to us. there are some from my mother's side. they are my second cousin. they are filthy rich and live in this big house, and i never seem to connect with them. probably the main reason because the dont seem to remember me at all. they remember everyone else in my family but not me and my brothers. it was kinda, how should i put it, weird that they dont know family. so i was like whatever, and i didn't care. when they saw me, i knew that they looked right throuht me like i'm invisible or something. it wasn't a really big deal but i never seem to connect with them at all. when we were kids, my mom would inrodused us as second cousin because we need to know our family. they would of course acknowledge my existense for once, and they would try and have a conversation with me. and the next few years we dont see each others and they forgot about us already. how could they forget about us, i didn't forget them. and the next again we met, and this time our mom introdused us again, just in case we forgot who we were. and so our existense are once again acknowledge. but then again of course the whole process starts again. forgetting, introducing, and acknowledging and such.
and do you ever meet with rich kids? they're favourite line is " i may be rich but i can talk with everyone. i'm humble."
as if. i've been with rich kids that are like that. they say they can talk with everyone, and i agree they can, but they dont hang out with everyone. but dont worry this has nothing to do with anyone that i know, NOT!
"Kabus malam tanpa bulan bintang seribu satu kisah lenggang lenggok mu... figura hatiku!!"
THE TIMES-Konfrantasi primadonna 1965
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
a mind set..a film touched...a new life.. a new prespective
malaysian film can be quite boring and yet again i see them to support the local scene. but the whole idea of following up-to-date movie such as the drift racing movies, is so not good. i want the malaysian film industry to come up with their own movie ideas, instead of following the flow of interest in that time. i mean come on, have a more better idea than following the fast and furious movies 'Tokyo Drfit' and turning it into something like 'KL Drift'. some people really liked this kind of movie, but that doesn't mean the whole of malaysia liked it. some will think that its a cheap ripoff of the Tokyo Drift. why not come up with something original like the one show that i respect because it can comeup with its own title, Impak Maksima(although the term Maksima doesn't exist in the malay dictionary, the term Maksimum is more appropriate). and another reason i respect it is because it can grow into a tv series. that is what i want from malaysian film makers, to make your movies original, without following the trend, and if you can come up with better plot, make it into a tv series. and come out with new genres for god sake. never ever go for the same thing over and over again, the rotations of love stories, and comedies, or romantic comedies, and suffering romantic comedy. the new genres introduced in these 2-3 years are scary movies, and racing movies. why not come with sci-fi, or action, or even those independence movies.
TV are a really good media. the medium can send a message to the whole world. but in particular in malaysia. the whole TV series is kinda, well i wouldn't call it a joke but... its not that interesting. the series they make is usually about life drama. as if our life is not filled with drama as it is. dramas are interesting to watch but it doesn't open our mind. with the introducing of ASTRO to our tv sets at home, we may never tune in to local tv station that much anymore, we may prefer to watch western tv shows. i on the other hand much prefer the local stations since my room doesn't have ASTRO, but its not the only reason, the other one is because the show are mostly repeats everyday. they repeat the same shows everyday, and only change weekly. so instead i watch the local stations because they dont have repeats, except maybe for the late night slot which i can assure nobody really watches except for those insomniac person.
one tv shows genre that i know i like is the new horror tv series Kekasihku Seru. those thursday nights slot are really interesting to watch because it shows the ghostly other-worldly that of our culture. the power of a human being that is able to see these superntural being and some are capable of destroying them.
another tv shows that i like is KAMI the tv series. it focuses on 4 teens. when i first saw this show, i was like " Finally malaysia's own teen dramas". i liked the whole tv series mainly because it focuses on teenagers, and how they deal with life, one a recovering drug addict, one a poor ex-drug dealer, one a kleptomaniac misunderstood kid who was never seen as anything to his parents eyes , one a girl that falls in love in the internet, and one uptight girl that doesn't listen to reason and likes boys a little too much. but one thing that all these kids have in common is that they all listen to indie music, and are connected by this fanzine made by the ex drug dealer called KAMI. that is how the shows got its name. but one thing about this show that i didn't like is the fact that it uses the same scene over and over again, but from a different person point of view. they could have used the scene in one episode only and continue on with another plot, without involving the same scene from another's view. the shows so far has one season, and i really hoped it will continue on for another season, and a rumor going on is that KAMI the Movie is in the making. cant wait for it. plus the show introduced malaysia to the world of indie music, which is quite sad actually. before nobody knew of the band Meet uncle hussein, the times couple, and other bands. the now going on tour is the KAMI the GIG, featuring Meet uncle hussien and all its patrons.
Film industry in malaysia really need to boost their taste and their ideas to actually make it to the same level as those in the UK or the US. so goodluck malaysia...
"terjatuh bangun semula, panic di Kuala Lumpur"
The Times-Panic! di Kuala Lumpur
TV are a really good media. the medium can send a message to the whole world. but in particular in malaysia. the whole TV series is kinda, well i wouldn't call it a joke but... its not that interesting. the series they make is usually about life drama. as if our life is not filled with drama as it is. dramas are interesting to watch but it doesn't open our mind. with the introducing of ASTRO to our tv sets at home, we may never tune in to local tv station that much anymore, we may prefer to watch western tv shows. i on the other hand much prefer the local stations since my room doesn't have ASTRO, but its not the only reason, the other one is because the show are mostly repeats everyday. they repeat the same shows everyday, and only change weekly. so instead i watch the local stations because they dont have repeats, except maybe for the late night slot which i can assure nobody really watches except for those insomniac person.
one tv shows genre that i know i like is the new horror tv series Kekasihku Seru. those thursday nights slot are really interesting to watch because it shows the ghostly other-worldly that of our culture. the power of a human being that is able to see these superntural being and some are capable of destroying them.
another tv shows that i like is KAMI the tv series. it focuses on 4 teens. when i first saw this show, i was like " Finally malaysia's own teen dramas". i liked the whole tv series mainly because it focuses on teenagers, and how they deal with life, one a recovering drug addict, one a poor ex-drug dealer, one a kleptomaniac misunderstood kid who was never seen as anything to his parents eyes , one a girl that falls in love in the internet, and one uptight girl that doesn't listen to reason and likes boys a little too much. but one thing that all these kids have in common is that they all listen to indie music, and are connected by this fanzine made by the ex drug dealer called KAMI. that is how the shows got its name. but one thing about this show that i didn't like is the fact that it uses the same scene over and over again, but from a different person point of view. they could have used the scene in one episode only and continue on with another plot, without involving the same scene from another's view. the shows so far has one season, and i really hoped it will continue on for another season, and a rumor going on is that KAMI the Movie is in the making. cant wait for it. plus the show introduced malaysia to the world of indie music, which is quite sad actually. before nobody knew of the band Meet uncle hussein, the times couple, and other bands. the now going on tour is the KAMI the GIG, featuring Meet uncle hussien and all its patrons.
Film industry in malaysia really need to boost their taste and their ideas to actually make it to the same level as those in the UK or the US. so goodluck malaysia...
"terjatuh bangun semula, panic di Kuala Lumpur"
The Times-Panic! di Kuala Lumpur
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