i'm feeling this

anyone ever felt so mellow that its like everything is blurry and things just seem to go slow then fast and then slow again...well that never happened to me before.... this is just a short post... sorry no idea...

not now not after....

this is something that i've done for several days.... because apparently i love to take photo, and because my dad just bought me a new DSLR Nikkon D60. the thing is cool to use and really good for one's creative mind...

here are some of the picture that i've taken:
This is taken at Heritage Cafe



this is also taken at Heritage Cafe..



Anyone ever been to Kampung Goebilt? This is where they sell fresh fish....
and this is....well apparently this is me, some took this picture while i was sleeping....who did that?

that is all, since i have no further idea on what to write this week.

"I can't think of younger days, when living my life was everything a man could want to do, i could never see tomorrow, but i was never told about the sorrow"
Bee Gees - How Can You Mend A Broken Heart

101st post.....

ok simply to say, i posted an empty post with just a title called 101st post, it was stupid, since the first post i've ever posted was about the same, i only posted the title..

which brings me to a what i'm wanting to post, i've been saving money to buy a new guitar, its
a Santa Cruz.

wish i had a picture of it. and i like the guitar as much as i like my crush, but if it was a choice i would choose the guitar, or the girl whichever sounds nicer.
anyway i'm still google-ing the picture...if i found some picture i'd be sure to post it....

"Reading my blog is just a boring thing to do, anyway, this was just to kill time, and i still love my crush.....i feel like that song by that guy called david archuletta..."

Dear someone....

for the past days, i've been listening to a compilation of the greatest hits from the FAB FOUR, or also known as the Beatles.. and because of some of the song, i've become JIWANG, EMO, Or Sentimental, and because i have suddenly aquired this feeling, i've become a victim to this cruel thing known as a crush.... it has been some time since i last have a crush on someone.... its a cruel feeling, that makes you feel like you just want her to know how you feel, and then maybe expect she would feel the same as you do... but it never is as one would think it would end.

i love her so, but she would never love me, a cruel thing, i would like to think, she knows i like her, but she just let me go....

this is how Emo i feel right now...
i've developed Feelings... something i thought would not happen to me considering my heartless condition.

i thought she would notice how i look at her, the way one would not look at any other person, the way someone that wants to see what her hearts says, the way that would want to fall in love with her , the way our eyes met, and how i fell for her.....

it really does feel shitty to know that you have a crush. a crush is what a schoolboy aged 7 would feel when he saw a girl he liked. it happened to me several times, but as i reached highschool, it all just became meaningless. so i dropped the whole cute boy act and became somewhat of a badass....not fully at first, but as a reached another period of time in highschool, when i was 15, freaky things happened, i lost my sense of morality, my sense of justice, my sense to do anything right, so i went with it, because it made me feel great. but somehow things happen for a reason, no girl would ever love someone who doesn't have a heart. i feel so heartless, and now i've grown a heart, and i have a crush on someone... i just hope she feels the same way or not, whichever it is, i hope this crush will move on quickly...

it hurts me so, that you don't understand how i feel, it hurts me just to know that i'm not him, it hurts me just to know, you are just my crush, and my love will somehow live on....

TQ,

i love you my crush if you are reading this.....

still remember the night...

tuesday, another day to feel so, tires/bored/fun/happy/sad/whatever!...it isn't like my days have gotten good so far. i'm still hoping that things would turn out good and by hoping things turn out good, i feel it wont turn out good... i dont know why i'm talking about something turning good. my heart still feels empty, and need someone to fill it out, preferably a girl, because i'm not gay...

made this boring picture last year... when felt bored one boring day, and that boreness made my boring day more boring than any usual boring day that my boring life would boring have, and because boring is like part of my boring life and that boring boring boring boring...... you get what i mean right?

too bad its not real....

i have no idea on what to write...but to be honest, non of my post has something pre-written beforehand.... but in any case i will write about something that kinda took my interest, but i'm not sure what that is.... so I'll write about nothing, again....and the thing is i haven't posted a blog in like more than 2 days mainly because my laptop is, not broken, but on the same line,the charger overheated and kinda died out. and so i'm force to use the PC downstairs, which i hate because i can't watch southpark, or family guy or undergrades or something..... so now i'm like bored and i have to wrap up the post quickly because my brother is giving me like only ten minutes to use the PC...

so yesterday i went to Sematan with the SOCIAL SCIENTIST, which means mass comm students....and it was kinda fun. had some swim, played truth and something, watched a turtle on the beach(not literally) , then baywatch?, and treehuggers... it was awesome... and i hope that i can do it again.....and because of yesterday's trips, i am tired as hell or heaven or some place...

"Aku berdoa, kau ada bersama, Kan Ku kira bintang, harapkan kau pulang"
-Gadis Mimpiku-

thinking back, and i'm really not looking for anger,

to have a new semester is like having a new school year start. anyway, last week was the first week of my third semester in LIMKOKWING Borneo, and in a mention to some of my friend, i'm now in my second year here...meaning one more year to go, and one PLKN to go through this year... which means my life is starting to get fun this year.

2009 started lame and sick and boring and kinda crappy. no one remembering my birthday, no presents, floods, stuck in a floods, had to be in a flood, and tried to swim in said flood, but with no avail, the water is murky filled with shards of broken glasses, and a copious amount of animals that lives in water and or comes out during floods a.e: snakes, scorpions, rats, pirhanas, crocodile, and of course water lizard.

slowly going on with 2009, it turned out better, my friends learned to play guitar, met a new drummer, met his uncle who is also our bassist, and then the most miracolous thing happened, i actually started a band. hmm, quite interesting. and so.. i also met a few girls in the process, like so and so.and in the event of starting the band, i also managed to write and compose two songs. ...pretty much its starting to get better.third semester starts, and i made an oath to myself to not be like last semester, that is my normal routine last time go to class, go home, sleep.. next day, same thing only buy KFC. and next day same thing also, but with chicken rice,and the next day as such.... so in not trying to repeat the boring stuff that i did, i try to get involved with more of the college activities, and hanging out with friends after class, rather than stay at home, and try to organize and or volunteer, with some kind of public event or campaign, like my first semester i voluntered with the ONE LIFE thing at the spring. apparently nobody seems to notice but, i did went there...some people did saw me and i was like all covering up my face... i started babling about useless shit again, and so i'm stopping...

okay next thing this year, the course decided to start a magazine, college-zine.. so i was suppose to design the magazine cover, and i was like why me? and nobody answered...i accepted wholeheartedly, and i also wanted to write some article for the magazine... and so i was stuck with thinking, what am i suppose to write about? music?(not so into pop music) lifestyle?(as if i have a life) food?(steroetypical fat guy typing here, so no) sport?(write about what, hot girls in sports) or just random things....maybe write about the culture of blogging, or facebook... maybe i could start a social observation? .....screw everything, i just write about freaking life or something....its much better than nothing...

"It's her hair and her eyes today That just simply take me away And the feeling that I'm falling further in love makes me shiver but in a good way..(you get it right?)"

Stephen Speaks-Out Of My League