STARGIRL

hey,
i'm looking out for my stargirl,
my intergalactic connection.........Mcfly(Stargirl)

this words probably suit me now.... ijust woke up. i didn't know what to do, my brother woke me uo so early. and when i asked him why he woke me , he said he didn
t know. WHat?.. another time to sleep wasted..

anyway back to the lyrics. well, it seems that i've reached that point where i am to find a girl, again WHAT? well i really need a companion right now, kinda like a partner. i couldn't let a guy be my companion, that would be just gay, wouldn't it?

"recently i've been,
hopelessly reaching,
out for this girl,
who's out of this world,
believe me.
she got a boyfriend,
he drives her around,
he's 23,
he's in the marine,
he'd kill me?" (Mcfly(Obviously)

i am gonna write another post on my favourite topic, that is LOVE. huh. what a crappy subject but it is inevitable to all of us, except for my friend nazwan(don't know why he is Anti-girl) love isn't just about boy and girl love, its about love all around, love for your parent, love for your family, love for your pet even. some people just don't understand love. i recently learned about relationship in class, and it touched a little bit on love. there are about 6 types of love(according to some guy who did the research in the 70's i think)

JOHN LEE(1976)
EROS
-a passionate love, usually involves a lot of physical and emotional things, it is love based on esthetic enjoyment

LUDUS
-a player, or playboy/playgirl. love is like a sport. no emotions are involve, a lot of physical going on here....

STORGE
-affectionate love. it starts from friendship. not a really good kind of love

PARAGMA
-practical love. love to these kind is like a professional connection. this love always ends in divorce(sadly)

MANIA
-an obsession love. they are desperate to be loved. they would love everybody. they got their hearts on the sleeves. have a low self esteem.

AGAPE
-Compassionate love. lovers are willing to sacrifice themselves for their lover. this is the titanic love.(which i personally think is stupid)

these are the type of love that generally happens in this . generally. well i haven't touched yet on unrequited love, or as i like to call it EMO-LOve(just sad, and kinda gay) i'l leave this to another topic on my next post so see ya'll

"To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing it's best, night and day, to make you everybody else, means to fight the hardest battle, which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting."

E.E Cummings

Smile, and i'll sing a love song to you

today, was like ano other day in LimKokWing.....just kidding.. if it were that boring i wouldn.'t post this.......right.......

so quick recap of today.. finished Nikki's group assignment.. which is about Modern Music.. i made the Genre part.. and better news.. nikki couldn't make it to class.. so Azuan(one of the marketing guys) came instead.. he taught us about advertising, and a little more,.. and he broke the record for the most fastest lecture..our class went home early.. except, i was trapped by this bastard who blocked the main gate.. you see Our college has this gate like the one in the mall, so we either need a card to get in or we could call the guys in the admin office to open it for us.. me, well today my father was sick so i had to use the motorcycle, bad idea.. so there was an opening at the automatic gate at one end.. so i usually went through there, bu today some bastard had this bright idea of parking at the spot.. what an idiot.. well if i wasn't thinking well, i'd probably just went through and scratched his car while going through( and by the way, the car was blocking my friends car too so she was also peeved) then one of my other classmate suggested we went back to Wing's Cafe while we waitfor the idiot to move is car.. well i waited for about an hour, then i was so bored waiting in the cafe that i even started to watch the movie the place was showing(which was 8th Mile, Eminem is in it) so we were watching when suddenly my classmate earlier(his name is loius) started to eat this fried rice(which another classmate brought for him, Intan brought it) and they started eating,there were four of us....... they wanted me to eat too but i refused, because i don't eat cold fried rice, i hate it when its cold.. because when its cold, they tend to get all wet from the steam of the rice earlier... so then i went home at probably eleven, god i'm so tired.. that damn car made my day worse, plus tomorrow is labour day, so no class at all.. (yea,jumping on the ceiling) so i thought to myself why not go laser tagging, instead of going this saturday, which i don't intend to do....

so that was my post for what happened half of the day today... tonight i'll post some more, maybe about one particular topic so bye....

"to appear in another form in life is just weird"

A Love Sonnet

i could look your eyes all my life,
there is none more fairer thatn yours,
let nothing stands between you beauty,
and you're quite cute when you're angry,
You're adorable when you're sad,
and you're sweet when you're happy,

all i could say is that no words can,
no words can describe how i love you,
no dictionary can define,
no language is enough,
not even love is enough,
you're not an obsession,
you're not just a girl,
but you are greater than love will ever tell,
words can ever say....
because this world was never meant for one as beautiful as you,
and we would be so happy together,
in a heaven we decend upon.......

I Love That You Get Crinkle Above Your Nose When You Smile....

"I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. "

Harry Burns ,When harry met sally, 1989

this was really a great movie.... although i wasn't there when it was released.... i still like it because movies like this doesn't come too often in this era...... usually it is because nobody has a better idea.... its a classic love story,,,

"Please watch When Harry Met Sally, really great show"

bloggers from others

i've been reading this guys blogs ever since he started it from friendster......
he was a forner senior at my school, one of the person i have admired, and has been like a footstep to follow, but i can't......so i just followed his tracks through his blogs.... he is a really nice guy...... i hope he succeeds while he is in america.....although i have never been there(if you're talking about the UK i have been there)...... ..or you can check the right side of my blog.... i've placed him under ridwan's blog.....
"really, you should read his blogs"

http://thoughtstreasuretrove.blogspot.com/

a fresh new start

i'm starting fresh, back to the beginning.......... i'm ready to find another love.......... i think i'm falling for someone in LIM KOK WING..... is it really worth pursuing or is it only a waste of time......i don know how to respond to myself...... it has been really a long time since i last had a girlfriend........ i can't rememberwhat to do....... its really sad for me really...... i can't talk to a girl directly......... maybe its like a weakness, like superman to cryptonite, or spiderman to love, or even batman to gayness(he must be gay right? he wears tight suits and all.....plus Robin his sidekick)........okay back to my problem.. this girl she's really cute.... i saw her this morning in the scholarship student meeting..... which was really weird..... she was sitting at the front, wearing pink shirt..... i don't know whether it was just a fling or anything, i can't really tell..... i don know how to react to her..... i don even know either she is in first semester or second or such.....all i know is that she might be older than me... which happens to me all the time i ever dated a girl........maybe this fresh start into looking at girls again will really change my life again..... this is college, it might be different from highschool or secondary school, this might be a big chance for me to really get in line to actually go out again, rather than me always hanging out with my friends doing idiotic things, and maybe with my stupid cousin(azzra GAY TOUGH) and "selak him until he cries(litterally).... maybe i will try to ask her out, maybe....just maybe.......

"Scholarship thing"
ow dang it......... Nikki called all of our class(which is under the borneo post scholarship) and other student under scholarship to attend this meeting....apparently it was to persuade(or force) each of us to active ourselves into activities going on in the college...... i personally think it was a weird thing to do, since we were just in sem 1 and she wants us to all this things..... and i personally am glad i didn't get chosen to be in the student commitee thing.... frankly because i don't want to..... and besides, i've been volunteering for about anything that i can , like this friday i will be at the ONE LIFE exhibition(about HIV and AIDS) and that will add something to my portfolio.....and this july... i will also be a volunteer at the RAINFOREST WORLD MUSIC FESTIVAL which is gonna be so much fun because this is the first time ever that i actually am going there and staying probably for free( i hope so..) and about the student commitee thing.... i am thinking of actually joining the performance band or something.... but i have no idea who to see...... i'll try asking around tomorrow.....

That was all the update today, ending this post with this things:

to love is hard,
to be loved is harder,
why do we need to love,
i do not know,
but the colours of roseses are red,
and if the violets i find are blue,
and i know that sugar is sweet,(and deadly)
that is why i may love you.......

To observe is likea satelite,
to read is not gay,
but azzra is......

She could be you, but that was long ago.....

this photograph has been hunting me.... eversince you gave it to me....and when i looked at it, i get this feelings.... a goosebump-like feeling.... and i can feel it going down my spine..... and you have such a beautiful face, i can;t imagine another like yours... i could but i wouldn't.... i feel like i've known you a lifetime......becoz of how i know your eyes....and they could take me back in time, when i do not know.....becoz she could be you....... she is the girl i like.....but i would not even know....and it happened so long ago.... i just wished i could tell you....about something that you do not know....but i'm having that dream when that day would finally come.......... and probably.... in some other world..... i am yours just for tonight......but really..... i can't get away, i can't break free from this life.......but i see them all the time.......and i know that its true......becoz...... picture paints a thousand words.... and one of those words isn
t a lie..........just becoz...... she could be you..........

inspired from the song by: SHAWN HLOOKOFF, She Could Be You....

This Charming Man.......

theres something thats been in my mind for a very long time.....how does the human love things work?..... everyone's answer is weird.......... and doesn't make sense..... and just keep tis in mind, LIFE IS NOT JUST ABOUT LOVE, GET USE TO THIS FACT, ......
moving on.....

just went to my first ever toastmaster meeting last friday............really enjoyed it......althought its filled with matured people(not to offend them,in case they read my blog) and if LKW here is introducing the club, then i am in.......

NExt>>>>

today, played laser tag...... first time playing it.... really fun, and very bloody tiring........lost my breath in the room, made my lungs burn, but really fun...... before tagging>>> went jamming in SABERKAS...... didn't play any right songs, mainly becoz OPIE were trying to learn the drums...... really wasted money but we did manage to only play one song, which was BERSAMA SEMULA by A.C.A.B......

now all my activity has been said, i would like to mention what people has been asking me all this week......"Have i ever smoke before?" well the answer is yes..... but only for 1 year, it was in form one.... i stopped in form two..... i smoked becoz of this "GIRL" that i used to date......well its in the past..... forget about the past, move on to the future............

This poem is about me...

i've seen many girl all my while,
i've seen them beautiful and hot,
i've fallen for them many times,
but i never said so,
becoz my heart is afraid,
afraid they would say no,
"her", DD,aa-long, nadia, dila, afira,
all are in my past,
i look at the future in my dreams,
i see blurred vision of a GIRL,
who is she?
that is what i want to know,
but for now,
i might just let it go,
let the future unfold,
by itself without me.......

"reading isfun, especially my blog"

HAHA

Story time.........

now currently i'm in a tight position, my assignment is due next week. some i have finished but some not this isn't gonna be easy for me this weekend. but i'm still making plan to go jamming and watch that movie this friday... maybe the "congkak" film will help me get some inspiration to do the assignment...

BTW, i have some good news..i'm currently making a screenplay for what i assume to be my tv series someday.....The title of my series is "SINI".. for those who think that "Kami" in 8TV was one heck of a good show, then this is the Sarawak version.....