Baby we can stay fly a G6

alrite. its been soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long since i've updated this blog. i think the last time i've updated this is last year, before i started or was it after i finished my practical training at SESCO. well anyway, a lot have happened since i last updated.

so anyway, right now, i'm waiting for my offer letter to enter this local university. i hope i get in, cause if i don't, then i'm in a lot of trouble in the job department.

so i think thats it for my latest updates. bye

"Shop the streets of Tokyo get your fly kicks, girl you always in my mind, got my head up in the sky feeling priceless, yeah where we at only few have known, waltz to next level Supermario, i hope this works out, Cardio. till then lets fly geronimo!"

YO!

`hey listen. i just started my practical training. so i may have more than enough time to update my blog, in any case just be sure to check them out.

i guess

i'm no pinochio. but i'm also no prince charming.

Transparent

its transparent. but unfortunately its not the literal meaning. its just metaphorically.

the girl. gone.

the plan. ruin.

the future.bleak.

the friends.same.

the parents.controlling.

the relationship status. single forever.

the status of my heart morale. very bloody LOW!!

whatever happened to the high spirited boy, its gone now. :(

"wouldn't even matter if we live on different planet, you know i'd steal a rocket ship and teach myself to land."

somehow i feel so abandoned

to tell you the truth, i never wanted to post anything on this blog about my personal life and shit. but when it comes to wanting to express myself, i just need to do it right away. this blog may not have many reader, but this could be for my future reference.

anyway, i'm not very good with how people say social skills, this is due to my mother's strict upbringing. like i didn't know how to talk to a girl until i was 12, and that was thanks to a movie known as American Pie. thats right, i am thought the social skill through a movie. so skip a few years, dated a few girl without anyone knowing, and finally now.it has come to the point where i took the liberty to adopt the style of one Barney Stinson, from the tv series How I Met Your Mother. his philosophy of bro's and such, and never bring a girl to meet your parents, or even your friends, and making a girl think your somebody else(although i perfected the skills way before i watched that show.) . so at this point i'm thinking that dating a girl is fine, making friends with a girl is fine. but having a very serious relationship with them is another thing.

the THING ABOUT GUYS, no matter how much they say they love and miss their girl, behind their sweet loving face is another face that wants to miss some other girl. some guys manage to pull this off,some are unfortunate, and some like me, just don't seem to care about what the other girls feel, meaning they tell their girlfriends that the are seeing some other girl. after all honesty is always the best policy.

so right now i'm thinking that i'm single, but i'm not going into the relationship thing again, since the last time i fell for this girl, it turned out really weird, for me, and maybe for her too.

just pointing out that if i do find the right girl, i'm gonna evaluate her first, get to know if she really does like me, and make sure that her friends don't find out about me.

i guess i'm ending my post here. and until further notice, i'm gonna continue writing stuff and shit . so goodluck if you are reading this, and have a nice day.

"and everytime i close my eyes, i could see you standing in front of me."

How Dreams are Crushed. How Fantasy is just a Fantasy.

okay. this is it. my post about movies. Crappy game adaptation and/or cartoon adaption into live action film.

The first movie that crushed my dream.

Transformers 2 (revenge of the fallen)
to tell you the truth, i'm not a big fan of Transformers. i'm just a fan of the toys, cause back then it was the only toy that i could play with that is a combination of two things. its a car that can turn into a robot. its like getting a 2 toys for the price of 1. anyway, heres how i think it is.

The movie lacks plot. i mean the first movie seems ok, not great, its okay, since its a first time film, plus it hints a sequel at the end, so curiousity killed the will to think the movie is crap. the sequel, it just blows. no character development, no plot. and of course a huge budget targeted into making fireworks(special effects). sure the effects were the best one i've seen in years, but believe me, good story plot is what i want. i mean so far, the best movie that i still think is the best would be LORD OF THE RINGS TRILOGY. no matter what you say about it. i mean come on. Michael Bay is one of Hollywoods leading Director, and he got the best cartoon/Toy franchise, and turned it into SPECIAL EFFECTS PERFORMANCE. the movie is by far in my worst movie list. theres no word to describe how ridicolous that movie is. if anyone is a fan of the film, explain what the movie is about actually.

Last Airbender
my favourite Nickleodeon cartoon, next to spongebob.
when i first watched the cartoon, it was the best thing in the world to me. when i watched the live action movie, i'm not sure it is the same thing anymore. the only way for you to like this movie is by actually not knowing there is a cartoon show by the name of Avatar: The Last Airbender. Shamalayan thought he could cram the whole season(Book 1:water) into an hour an a half movie. its okay if only the character were believable. theres no emotion. theres no comic relief(Sokka's Character, and occasionally Aang). what a piece of dissapointment. if they could remake the movie, i would suggest giving book 1 with 2 parts. at least they could make more money with that, and the plot would be less crammed, and the character won't be jumping from one side of the world to another side of the world. the plot is ok. but it was just too crowded. Shamalayan, to me, is a great director, he introduced me, to the word "plot twist". his movies at first were thought to be unpredictable, but as time moves, it became predictable. but the twist is better with each movie. I like the Sixth Sense, The lady in the water, etc. but this adaptaion of Avatar is just not right. he wouldn't be doing the world any good, by making this movie. I was FREAKING DISSAPOINTED WITH THE FREAKING MOVIEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DragonBall:Evolution
Best comic in my list, next to One Piece, GTO, and my collection of Malaysian Comic.
THE REASON THIS MOVIE IS NOT GOOD:(spoiler alert)
1. Goku doesn't have tail
2. it is set in America, or somewhere in the WEST
3. Shen Wong is some kind of evil entity that wants to destroy the world.
4. No Kurin/Kirillin.
5. for some reason, no mention of Saiyan race or Saiyan warrion is in the movie.


Tekken
im in no mood to say why i hated this movie most.
if you played the game you know why. okay to be honest I AM GOING TO SAY WHY IT SUCKS REALLY BAD.
1st, JIN KAZAMA is raised by his granfather Heihachi Mishima because he inherited the Devil Gene. and his mother did raised him but was killed by OGRE. not KAZUYA.
2nd, wheres the rest of the character from tekken 1, 2 , 3, 4. somehow, Miguel, Christie, and Sergei is in it. and why is steve fox old, and why did Eddie have no connection to Christie?
3rd, WHERE IS HWORANG AND KING?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? Paul Phoenix get beaten by Marshall Law. STEVE FOX IS THE SON OF NINA WILLIAM!!!!!!not a retired BRITISH BOXER.

okay this isnt movie REVIEW.
its just me complaining about the movies not in line with its original sources. if you want to make a movie based on the a source, follow the source. if you don't follow the source, might as well make your own movie.

"i'll take it one day there will be no more movies."

I'm Here, I'm Back. and with nohting to do. i write.

so here i am again. for the time being, its the first entry in the month of Ramadhan. and entering the second week pf fasting. to tell you the truth, i'm kinda gaining weight during this month for no apparent reason, since fasting means you eat less, and skip meals for the whole daytime. but whatever. i could care less.

and for some reason, i've developed my writing skills to reduce my usage of dots. get that? see, no more long dots between sentences. hahahaha.

and precisely talking about that, someones been using the dots too many time in his writing, more accurately, his text. what do you think using dots as a way to emphasize how your words should be? its okay if its followed by another words, but to only put one word, and then end it with a lot of dots is just stupid.

i like to ramble in my blogs because i never get to ramble in real life. its really fun, everyone should try it. its the internet, chances are anyone that you know would read this is a million to one. but chances they'll open that link in your facebook page is pretty high. (it happened to me last year)

so in the spirit of my sriting wisdom coming back, i'll try to finish whatever i'm starting . so here's to a new beginning, and the start of something grand i hope.

"to tell people the truth that you hate them is harsh, but its life"
-Me (2010)

morning glory...

i want her to be my morning glory...so much.... if you're reading this, i wanted to become something more...

when will i ever see you again

over and over again.

do you sometime get that feeling, you know, when you feel bad for no apparent reason? well if you do then you do... i don't get it at all....

the dissapearing boy

i'm regretting. regrets are never good. so i'll just forget it.

anyway, seems its already been 2 month, i haven't said a word to her. its not cause i'm mad or anything, its just that, i don't know, i dunno what i'm doing anymore... am i really going to get over it just like this? cause no matter what, i'm eventually gonna meet her.. its as if i don't know.

she has her own things going on. but if theres one thing i know that i want to do, is that i'm never falling for someone again. cause the fact is, there is never a true love....i've been hurt much too much already, not by her, but by some other girl before her.....and yeah i look fine but guess what i'm never gonna be fine.

its something thats gonna stay forever, it never slips out of my mind, but whenever its the main thing inside my head, i try to laugh myself to try not to think about it.

the truth is, guys that are honest are a dime a dozen, and some that looks good and are honest at the same time are harder to find. i'm not saying i look good, i don't. i'll never will.....but now people only choose the faces right? personality, and everything too.... cause if you're lucky, you'll find the one thats always good to you even when you're not good.....but the fact is that nobody even freaking cares anymore....

i'm just rambling random stuff here, and i'm not making sense...don't ever believe in true love....if love doesn't even exist, how can there be true love right? hahaha
theres a word for people who don't believe in god, they are known as atheist, i don't believe in love, what do you call it?

get you're edward cullen, and your prince charming, and try to find them, they're not real, but you'll get em anyway, closer than resemblance, feelings not the same, i hope they are true, cause the truth is, guys don't really love girls, they're just playing with em. i've heard hundreds of stories of how a girl got broken by a guy, and guess where they start at? lovey-dovey feelings from every point of time, calling in every minute, and they always say that this is true love.. as if, three month laters they're fighting calling each other whore and bitches, and sluts...and lastly they were not together again.....i've heard them all before. no guy will ever love a girl truely...even me....yes its true....

"a love poem is nothing noone can really give, its just a poem, theres no love... emotion makes em love... fuck that..."

Loser Lullaby

officially, i'm a loser. no further cynical remarks or sarcasm. she is the one. i could feel it.

she could be her....ow a

hmmmmmmmmm

i don't know anything, i haven't talked to her in days. taking and advice from a friend, i should just leave her alone.

i want to stop thinking about her, but i couldn't. i wish i could, thats why i've been keeping myself busy for a while, going out and other stuff. but everything that i do, i can't stop thinking about her..... dear god... i just can't. now more than ever.

i think she already found someone to be with her, i'm praying that the guy is me, but what are the chances right? i've got a better chances of getting a car than being with her. i know what i am. hahaha

but with anything, i'm not giving up that easy. until i'm sure i'm over her... which means never ever. i can handle rejection, but the thing is, i haven't been rejected, cause i haven't confessed anything to her myself.

i might not be that good looking ..... but i will love her with all my heart, honestly...but i'm guessing it will never be. cause i've been searching for that special someone, and with the girls before, i never liked any of them. not one bit. but they like me, thats why i agreed, cause i didn't wanna make them feel rejected. i never want to be with a girl that i don't have feeling for, so i broke up with em, and this year i've been alone for a whole year, cause i thought i found the one, i waited for my time, the time came, but i never told her.

now, i think its over, but i'll never be over her. i promise myself that i wouldn't be with a girl that i don't have feelings for. and now i only want her.but she never talk to me again. and i'm just swallowing my pain, swallowing my pride....swallowing the love that i never had.

"i love you honestly, i want to love you honestly. but you didn't give me any chances. so now i'm left here, to wallow in grief. i wished they never told you, you were nice to me, now you're cold. i don't wanna know why. is it because you had the wrong idea of me? even if i do like you, i don't want to become your boyfriend, why would i? i'm not the perfect guy, for someone like you, it must be the perfect guy. i wished you read this blog. i only wish the best for you...only for the best. cause maybe thats what you always wanted. not me"

WHAT?

i wonder what did i do? i never did anything. i didn't say anything.

maybe thats why, its because i never did anything. it seems she's a bit colder to me. i'm gonna leave her alone for a few days...

and once again, what did i do? whats wrong with this world and me.

"WHAT DID I DO? " -asking the world what did i do

i'm just another emo boy.its just aother day

i know.its true, the more i deny it, the more true it is. emotional.... how stupid isn't it? i should have stuck to the rules when i set them.

guess the only thing i want to know is, the what ifs.... i wish i could read my life like a comic book, or just any normal book. always knowing the ending, but i never could, the only ending i could see is my death, and even thats not certain when.

but anyway, my legs still hurt after my accident yesterday. i went through with the test. and i guess, i did badly.. and afterwards went out. still enduring the pain. but i still went. guess somethings are just that easy to do, when youhave strong feeling for. thats it for the update.

"but i rather be working for a paycheck than waiting to win th lottery." Bright Eyes- The First Day Of My Life

Not really

I'm no good when it comes to talking to the girls that i like... thats it.... who doesn't right?
but i'm a mass comm student, so why am i so shy in front of her, i only talked like a bit by bit...
must be those stupid butterflies that keep flying in my stomach. still i've got to keep my hopes up high. i'm hoping that i'll be ready in time when i tell her how much i like her.

i must gather enough courage, and strenght and hopes, and of course prayers in hopes that i can confess to her...declare my feelings for her. but for now, i'm just happy she's happy.....


"i'll do it someday... i'm not hoping to become anything, i just want you to know. what your decision is, i don't care. as long as i do have my love on you....." Realization of a hopeless romantic

no intention (unimportant stuff, don't read this.) its aprivatepost...

i've no intention...she must've know... i have a gut feeling. i don't know what should i do... never had i had a crush for a girl like this one.

maybe i should just tell her... but if i do tell her, wouldn't it be kinda awkward? me, the guy who she just met a few times... but you'll never know if you don't try..... so i'm never gonna try.. better stay in ignorance then facing the music.

and due to some stupid circumstances... theres also all that rumour around campus... (how i wish to only stay hidden.) hidden... i like being hidden, if it gets out, i don't ...i don't know what to do.

i've faced humiliation by my friends more time, as far as anyone knows.. i'm not being emo. i even knew she read this blog.... but as far as it does bother me... the code that i used to hide her name, it was so obvious.

and thats when everything gets tougher... i've thought about it.. maybe she is outof my league.. maybe that pie in ths sky dream that i've had is just meant to be pie in the sky dream. that star i've been trying to reach is gone. that wishing star i've been wishing on is stupid. and all i have left could only be just what i do have left. i mean, i know, that with all the things happening around my life, i've always have more things to think about. and life isn't worth it thinking about just one girl, but all i want is for that one girl, no THE GIRL, to be a part of it. so i can always have someone there, in the bad times... or the good times... or just any time..... and just cause inever really liked a girl this much before makes me think that...well lets just say that it makes me think.

will she always be the one? the one that i'll always spend my time with, from the first until the last. but thats all just a thought of a hopeless romantic...thinking too far ahead. when everythings happening now.

but i rather not tell her. if it means there will always be that awkward moment whenever i see her.i'd rather keepit to myself, than feel that what i've done is just for nothing. cause confessing you love someone that much, is like taking a HUGE step in my life. its not like that i have feelings for anyone else. i don't. i don't have any feelings for any girls that i meet. there are special ones... guess she'll never know.... guess i won't know... guess that all i could only do is just stand in the middle of the world and just look around. that happy ending that ive always dreamed about won't ever come true. but i'm not searching for it.

THIS POST IS SERIOUSLY STARTING TO SOUND ALL EMO.. SO I"M JUST GONNA STOP...

this blog has always been a haven for me. to express my thougths to the world. but i've neverbeen able to express my thought in real life. so i'm just gonna stop, stop doing this, start getting a real life, and just start thinking like anormal person would. so long i've always thought my life was like a movie, or TV show that i've ignored eveything and just keep doing what i do. but its not, that dream girl that i like, won't be mine, that job that i've wanted to have all the time won't be mine, i'll probly end up with just a crappy job. and friends, they aren't always what they seem. they always have something up, behind or front, with or without me. and i'm always the kind of friend, that usually in movies , be the unimportant ones. (the best friend of the hero, that becomes an unimportant part of the plot asthe story progresses.)

risky risky business, i'm only a risk. even if i do confess to her, where would it end up. even when i'm only her friend, i'll always want more, so maybe i shouldn't be involved with her. maybe. maybe maybe.(i hate using mabye)MAYBE MAYBE MAYBE....

"don't know why i'd fall for you, i only wanted you to always smile, so if i'm not the one that could make you smile, then... i guess i'm not the one... " Confession of a hopeless romantic...

Been A while

It has been a while since i visited this blog, since i'm very busy with studies and facebook, and trying to make this girl like me,ow did i tell you i found a new crush?... she's so perfect...i guess i could say she'sthe girl that i've been looking for. but who knows, love isn't something i can control...

i'm making sure that nothing will disrupt me again. the reason why i stopped blogging before was because of the new semester starting and now its finally reaching is end. and i will try to update it as much as i can... so for now i'd just have to say one thing..."ILOVEYOU9101"

"You're no different" Ozzy Osbournes

RAMADHAN...

i'm seriously thrilled... because for once, i'm looking forward to the fasting month, mainly because i'm trying to lose weight...and seriously this time.

Ramdhan al-mubarak, the month in which muslims are required to fast (not eat) from dawn(Subuh) till dusk(maghrib).

to few people these are a nuisance to their daily life, but to most its not. and to me its like a blessing whereas i could not eat if i wanted to, without anyone else seducing me to eat. but no seriously...i'm trying here...trying to change, but noone seems to understand. well i'm not gonna whine and stuff because this is a blog, not a diary.and by change, i really do mean the real change, i'm gonna be a more better person alltogether. and hopefully i will finally end up with a girl that truly likes me, insyallah...


anyway, have a pleasant fasting month to all the muslim worldwide.

H1N1, Haze...the dreaded H

One by one, it appears that our country is plague by things that most of us don't even want. first the H1N1, then the haze, so we as the public must try to fend ourselves from these problem , cause if you don't, then its a problem not just for you, but the whole community. so in any case, we should all prevent it from happening.

P.S, if you are inflicted with a really powerful fever, don't hide it, cause if it gets worst, you'll end up dead, or paralyzed or something. the worst things that could happen is you'll be quarantined. then after a week, if you're better you'll be let go.

heres a safety precaution;
1. wear mask anywhere you go that has a lot of people there
2. wash your hands clean (scrub all teh details, and the nail and stuff)
3.cover yourself when you sneeze(which you should do even when when there's no pandemic, cause its rude to sneeze in front of people)
4.TRY to avoid crowded place, and if you have to go, wear a mask, or face cover(i.e scarf)
5.if you're friends are sick, avoid contact(unless the sickness is physical, i.e broken hands, legs, or plastic surgery)
6. if you're sick avoid contact to the outside world physically( i.e socializing via the internet, talking through the phone, sms, email and if you desperately want to see a person, 3G them or videocall them.)
7. haze is a problem, if you have an elderly/baby or someone who has asthma, keep them indoor(do take note that the swine flu mostly infects those with low antibody count, i.e elderly/baby/ sick person)
8. if somehow you THINK you have H1N1 , wear a mask, isolate yourself from anybody, and go straight to the hospital.

here are the examples of what to expect here in Kuching:

This is in Semariang, near Sukma...notice the picture are dark? not because of my photography skills but the haze

and heres the view on the bridge on the way to Buntal....

And for the safety precautions that's good;(since i don't have any other model, i used myself)

Good and safe

oh, and since i'm a motorcycle rider, i have to use a scarf to cover my face(the normal mask would be torn if i use it)

these are just precautions, so please if theres anything wrong with them tell me, cause its dangerous if we don't know. i've also been hearing rumours that the vaccine for H1N1 is being cultured, to supply the whole world. in any case take safety measures before they give the vaccine, even if you have you're own precautions......

TAKE CARE.....

i love you, LEFT4 DEAD!!!!

here's a tribute to my favourite game for this year, aside from spore and red alert 3...

this game, is like a combination of two games, that is a combination of Counter-Strike and Resident Evil, or the hybrid of both, Counter-Evil....hmm...

any way... here's the games info, the world, like many zombie games and movies, is under an outbreak of infection.and the best thing is there is no cure for zombie-ism, but there is a cure for necrophilia...i have no idea why i said that. anyway, the zombie virus spread across the world, and everyone that isn't immune to it dies, or anyone that's been bitten becomes a zombie once they are dead, like many zombie related games and movies. so it is up to the 4 survivors of the game A.K.A 'us the player' to escape from the nightmare of these unfamiliar zombie outbreak. and by the way, there are also 4 'hero' zombie types.. Tank, Hunter, Boomer, and Smoker...these 4 are the dangerous kind of zombies, not because they are a further mutation of the virus, but when you are left behind, and one of them manages to catch you, then you are dead...sorry to say...so instead of only relying on yourself, you must also rely on the AI or your friends too.. did mention you can multiplayer with your 3 friends too?.. the game requires a lot of teamwork, if theres no team work.. then you'll die the second the hunter/boomer/smoker/tank catches you....

so here's a few picture i had of the game....be sure to play the game!! you must play the game .... its a must to play the game... the game must be played!!!!

here's how you will view the game....

team work is always important

Watch the back of your teammate and they will watch yours coz if you don't...This is how you'll end up... being dragged by a smoker a cross a hall, while he bites and eats you..and so will the other zombies, if there are hordes of them...

or worst, you'll end up dead...goodbye...on the lighter side, you get to continue on playing if the other survivors found you trapped inside a closet somewhere, or a toilet...

and like i said if you are left behind chances are you could get attacked by this guy... the Tank, a big chunk of running muscle...ready to charge and hit you, and throw heavy stuff your way....notice the ground shaking everytime he's near....

and here's what happens when he manages to incapacitate you... what a downer....and if he hits you a few time while you're down, then you'll end up...

Here again... dead.. sorry to say...

And as an ending word, if you are playing this then you're probably enjoying it... if you haven't played it yet, then you should play it, cause if you don't you are missing out on a lot!!!! and if you played it but hated it, then you're probably a no good footdragging zombie... and i'm coming to get you!!!!hahahahaah