a new year, the end of something, and starting of something...

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okay, tonight is the big countdown. and tomorrow is a new year. which i totally think sucks.. and by sucks i mean really sucks. cause every new year, i have to follow my parent and go to some stupid barbeque, and all. and the bad thing is, i have no friend at the barbeque. E-In is in KL, probably having a blast celebrating new year there, and Opie is probably at the PLKN camp celebrating there, or maybe he's here... whatever...

i have no mood celebrating new year, cause as i've always thought of it as meaningless. and probably because i have a fever caused by my stupid idiotic sore throat. and to make things worse, nobodies home. and i'm alone to face this horrible predicament like luke skywalker fighting darth vader in Episode 5... or 6...its 5

and making matter's worse is that, i have lost my voice, due to the sore throat. so in the worse case scenario, i probably have to stay at home, and be sick while the others are celebrating new year, hey i mean a barbeque is better than feeling all fucked up sick at home...at least its better than last year, and to make matters worse, another year alone... she's not here, and if you're reading this baby, always know i'll always think of you..hehehehe

i want to go somewhere else next year, maybe go to KL or Miri to celebrate Nu Metal Year... plus my birthday is coming this january and to be precise its the 10th...... following up to that i would also like to point out that this year my january 10th birthday will coincide with my birthday in the Islamic calender, that is 13 Muharram... which also is like last year, coincide with Awal Muharram. and somehow its a sign from god that i must be more pious and not miss my solat and stuff, but i cant do that especially when i'm turing 18. but i must. and by the way my birthday will be celebrated with a zikir and kia mulaail at my house. its better that than what Azzra did.

"then there were just the 2 of us, why couldn't have we been more, why couldn't have we love each other, and till the end we regretted our lost, and neglected to see that our lives were fading...." KMKORG- Till the end...(i'm forming this band... and this song i did write)