i'm starting fresh, back to the beginning.......... i'm ready to find another love.......... i think i'm falling for someone in LIM KOK WING..... is it really worth pursuing or is it only a waste of time......i don know how to respond to myself...... it has been really a long time since i last had a girlfriend........ i can't rememberwhat to do....... its really sad for me really...... i can't talk to a girl directly......... maybe its like a weakness, like superman to cryptonite, or spiderman to love, or even batman to gayness(he must be gay right? he wears tight suits and all.....plus Robin his sidekick)........okay back to my problem.. this girl she's really cute.... i saw her this morning in the scholarship student meeting..... which was really weird..... she was sitting at the front, wearing pink shirt..... i don't know whether it was just a fling or anything, i can't really tell..... i don know how to react to her..... i don even know either she is in first semester or second or such.....all i know is that she might be older than me... which happens to me all the time i ever dated a girl........maybe this fresh start into looking at girls again will really change my life again..... this is college, it might be different from highschool or secondary school, this might be a big chance for me to really get in line to actually go out again, rather than me always hanging out with my friends doing idiotic things, and maybe with my stupid cousin(azzra GAY TOUGH) and "selak him until he cries(litterally).... maybe i will try to ask her out, maybe....just maybe.......
"Scholarship thing"
ow dang it......... Nikki called all of our class(which is under the borneo post scholarship) and other student under scholarship to attend this meeting....apparently it was to persuade(or force) each of us to active ourselves into activities going on in the college...... i personally think it was a weird thing to do, since we were just in sem 1 and she wants us to all this things..... and i personally am glad i didn't get chosen to be in the student commitee thing.... frankly because i don't want to..... and besides, i've been volunteering for about anything that i can , like this friday i will be at the ONE LIFE exhibition(about HIV and AIDS) and that will add something to my portfolio.....and this july... i will also be a volunteer at the RAINFOREST WORLD MUSIC FESTIVAL which is gonna be so much fun because this is the first time ever that i actually am going there and staying probably for free( i hope so..) and about the student commitee thing.... i am thinking of actually joining the performance band or something.... but i have no idea who to see...... i'll try asking around tomorrow.....
That was all the update today, ending this post with this things:
to love is hard,
to be loved is harder,
why do we need to love,
i do not know,
but the colours of roseses are red,
and if the violets i find are blue,
and i know that sugar is sweet,(and deadly)
that is why i may love you.......
To observe is likea satelite,
to read is not gay,
but azzra is......
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